Sometimes I lay in my bed late at night and I’m like “Charelle, you’re making a bad choice” but then I’m like “Well one more hour of YouTube wouldn’t hurt.”

Not gonna lie, as much as I love all of the many kinds of music I listen to, nothing makes me feel like do when I’m listening to worship music. And then it’s the times like this that make me wonder why I ever put my relationship with God on the back burner. In my heart I know that God should be the main focus in my life but my head keeps telling me that I can always go back to my bible tomorrow or next week. What good is God’s word doing for me if I don’t take the time to read it, study it, know it. And what am I doing in my life if I’m not doing his will like I promised I would when I decided to change my life for him. It’s always this time of year that my faith continually drops on my priority list. I’m willing to finally admit to myself that I start looking forward to the amazing experience that I have at Student Life camps with my youth group every summer so I basically give up while I wait to be rejuvenated. It’s like running a marathon; after a fast start you begin slowing down, and even stopping to catch a breath until you feel ready to sprint at full speed again. Why am I doing this when I should be going strong until I reach the finish line? I know we all stumble and of course no one is perfect but this has become an annual thing for me for the last four years and frankly, I’m sick of it. There are no excuses and I need to stop looking for them. It’s time for me to do what I changed my life to do. I know that I’m young and that I have a long life ahead of me (God willing) but I’m done with the excuses. I want to go strong until I reach the finish line. 

It’s crazy that it took the Kristian Stanfill radio on Pandora in the late hours of the night for me to realize this.

How great is our God?

doristhespider:

You know I don’t really listen to Rap but I can get behind Mac Miller and Machine Gun Kelly. Just saying…

(Source: no-you-girl)